Many people die,

and although it is not my fault,

nor can I stop,

or help to stop them.

Can I not still cry.

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Forgive me the words I do not say,

the smiles I do not smile,

the touch I do not give.

I would talk to hear your voice,

smile to see your smile,

touch to feel your touch.

I wish to hear your voice,

love to see your smile,

dream of your touch.

Yet,

we sing to different songs,

smile for different reasons,

touch what we would touch.

I find a gulf between us,

small enough to see across,

to smile across,

to talk.

Yet,

one I cannot cross.

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Who has the past,

and where are the tomorrow’s.

Today is but so little,

a moments passing sorrow.

How quickly we flee,

our darting eyes averted.

How quickly we hide,

among the distant shadows,

they spring out of yesterday,

we'll live in them tomorrow.

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Slowly,

softly,

a gentle warm,

slowly moving,

softly changing,

all that it caresses.

Warm wind blows,

bright sun lights,

white castles are,

up in the sky.

Water dances,

green grass freshens,

skin becomes tan,

little children's laugher,

life is happy,

forward looking,

spring moves upon the land,

and in the hearts of men.

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A boy and a girl,

walking hand in hand,

a flower passed,

is quickly picked,

and quietly given,

a new flower will grow,

even as their love.

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Oh noble dreams of man,

how great and endless hope,

with courage to climb the highest peaks,

and tame the wildest land,

you know of no quest too daring,

no goal lays beyond your grasp,

oh great and noble man;

do you seek no rest.

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Oh how great the distances between us

Oh how far apart and afraid

Why is there walls between us

Why do we keep each other so far away

I long to reach out to you

I long to bring you in so close

To hold you with my arms tight about you

To close the space that lays between

Oh why do we hold away from one another

Oh why do we keep to ourselves

So alone

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Oh I would have reached out to you

I wanted to give you my hand

You needed help but would not take mine

You wanted someone to hold you

Someone to make you feel loved

A shoulder to lean on

A strong arm around you

Words spoken softly to you

A hand to stroke your hair

On but you would not let it be mine

Oh how I wanted to touch you

Oh I wanted so to help you

To let you cry the tears you were holding

To let you know that someone cared

Oh I sorrowed at your sadness

I cried the tears that you would not

I felt the feeling you had hid

Oh how I wanted to help you

I wanted to show you how much I cared

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Do not cry, my little one,

because I am leaving you,

I am not leaving forever,

I'm just going home to see my father.

My father who I have not seen in many,

oh so many years.

Someday, someday you to can come to see him.

And I will be there waiting to see you too.

We will be so happy to all be together,

we'll all be so very happy to be together again.

And then we will always be with one another,

forever and ever.

So don't cry,

you see,

it is only for a little time,

then you will see me again.

For I must go home,

because my father is calling,

and I must go home.

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It has been said,

Hate the sin,

And love the sinner,

But I say unto you,

Love the sinner,

And with understanding of the sin,

Pity the sinner in the sin,

For surely hate is a poor servant,

But a powerful master,

Few can rule their hate,

And many are ruled by it,

And who can or will look past their hate for the sin,

To see how they can help the sinner,

Therefore,

Love the sinner,

For love is,

Not hate,

The way to understanding.

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Oh Lord of hosts

Oh creator of all

Father of all people

Lord of lords hear me

My father turn thy thoughts to me

With faith endless

And knowledge of thee

Yet still life is hard

Still my heart is sorrowful

Still I feel that it will never be

Oh Father Oh Father

Give me the will to go on

For I am such a weak and insecure child

I need thy strength to go on

Oh my Lord

Let me not forget thee

May I remember thy plan

And know that someday all things will be

Lord, Lord

Oh I await that day

Long for that glorious day

Oh may it be soon

Please let it be soon

I need it to be

I want it to be

Oh my Lord

My dear, Oh my most dear Lord

Oh most dear father

Amen

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Kirtland

Oh most holy father

See now my suffering

Oh dear Lord

They do not know thee

They feel not the ill

The darkness of the very air

The sadness of thy spirit

Your sorrow of children lost

Here the very earth cries out the pain

The light of the sun is cold

Cold, so cold and hard

My heart is torn from me

My mind is dark

My soul crushed

Oh my father

How great must be thy suffering

How endless thy sorrow

How deep thine despair

I cry

I cry for that which they have done

I cry to see that which was thy house

I cry for thy dreams cast down

And walked upon by men

Oh my Lord

How see they not thine glory

How see they not thine truth

How do they not know thine sorrow

All creation

All work of thine hand

Does here cry out with despair

Oh how

Oh how do they not feel it

Why does it not tear their hearts

Oh how do they have joy here

Father

Give unto me understanding

That I may know

That I may know why they would come here

For dark do I feel the spirit

Loudly the earth calls out its sorrow unto me

Heavy

Heavy is my heart

Then I am here

In Kirtland

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Oh little bird

up in the tree

Oh little bird

what can you see

Oh little bird

you can fly so high

Oh little bird

now you've flown away

Oh little bird

you can fly so far

Oh little bird

how fine you are

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So far I have wandered

So far have I gone

Away from my dear mountains

Away from my dear home

No mountains rise above me

No valleys lay below

No pine trees are around me

with their scent the air is not filled

Where are the rushing rivers

their joyous songs to hear

Where is the mighty eagle

Sailing so high up in the air

Oh I song to see my mountains

To climb them up into the sky

To look upon the fair valleys

And across the land so wide

I will seek again my mountains

They wait always for me

Then home again to my mountains

The mountains so dear to me

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Oh empty sky

lonely sky

always blue

so far away

oh lonely sky

so high above

oh so distant sky

I feel like you

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See the bird,

birds are to be free,

to fly the sky,

and sing songs of joy.

See the bird,

so much like me,

in a cage.

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Where is one to warm my side

someone to let me hold my arms around

the soft silken hair against my face

the heart to beat together with mine

someone to smile with me in a sercet way

to walk with in parks as gentle rain falls

where is someone with and be with

someone who I can be me with

oh where can I find her or see her

oh where can I go and hope to meet her

somewhere I'll know and someday I'll find her

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Of freedoms songs

so sweet and clear

of the great land

we hold so dear

the blue sky

and rolling land

of mountain high

and rivers wide

with wings of dreams

our spirits flies

our hearts are filled

with pride of you

let us sing

with sweet words

and shout

joyous praise

freedom songs

let us sing

with many voices

loud and clear

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Rise up and soar

let your thoughts flow free

make your spirit dance

upon the wind

see all creation

in colors bright and merry

hear only laugher

all the voices singing

seek ever higher

set not bounds

may your joy

grow to be endless

we have made ourselves

to be what we are

and to change

we need but to change

to be that

which we would be

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Dark deep night

with stars alight

reaching clouds

cool winds blow

the fragrant air

in still silence

void of man

no cars race

in endless chase

no thronged masses

do sidewalks bear

stores in darkness

doors are closed

stoplights flash

for empty roads

night is king

sleep the queen

and men lay down

before their thrones

few walk the night

in darkness calm

a quiet peaceful

darkened land

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Softly falls the rain

tears the heavens cry

for the martyred sons of God

brothers of you and I

with love they walked

upon this earth

wanting each of us to save

just trying to teach

to love and do right

of God and to obey

why do some hate

those who teach love

and seek them out

their lives to end

where is the danger

that love brings

to make them so afraid

what is the harm

in knowing of God

that death alone can staid

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There is always a light

in the darkest of nights

one no fog can hide

it shall never us fail

our way to reveal

if we will but look to it

it is the words of our God

his teaching and laws

our prophet has revealed

God's words will go out

carried to all the lands

by the power and work of man

the world shall be filled

light will all reveal

the glories and wonders of God

123

To dream

is not enough

to want

and to hope

is not all

one must do

because dreams

dreams are not free

there are prices

that must be paid

costs that will be took

because dreams take work

they demand commitment

your time and talent

must be freely given

and still

still in the beginning

and while it grows

your dream gives you little

and it will need so very much

yet you can dream

and your dream can come true

if you will

pay the price

dreams are not

free

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If you are quiet

and keep very still

and close your eyes

then you may listen

to very quiet sounds

birds that are singing

birds that are flying

their wings beating air

the wind rustled trees

the humming of bees

children that are playing

in afield far away

and a church bell ringing

calling folks to pray

many are the sounds

so quiet

you may not hear

if you do not listen

very quietly to hear

125

Is life but a game

and we but players

following the rules

that have no meaning

is there an end to life

sharp and clear

when all that now is

will cease to be

when that which we are

will be but memories

to those who are living

is there no meaning

to all we do and are

but as players of a game

I think this not

life is real

not just a game

with meaning in the rules

and life changing

but without end

because there is a God

I know this in my heart

I see him in all I see

feel it within my soul

life is not a game

but to those who wish

only to play

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Some goals

take a lot of time

and some

take very little

others don't

depend on time

but rather

just to do them

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Sunlight flows and eddies

with bright deep pools

shallow dark currents

it rises and falls

moving in the tides

of the suns motion

within the dryness

of deep night

lies the bed

of this river

breaks the drought

floods the world

quenching the thirst

bring back all to life

flowing with richness

upon the land again

with eddies

and pools

128

Birthdays?

what are birthdays for?

what do we do on birthdays?

an old year ends

a new year begins

time turns about a day

four swift seasons

slowly passing

always different

yet still the same

bright sun lit summer

cold brilliant winter

season going unchained

129

Come my love

let us slowly walk

upon soft grass

growing between trees

beneath blue sky

snow white clouds

gentle wind

touches our backs

come my love

let us see

beauty rich

colored spring

flowers small

great towering trees

flying birds

butterflies

come my love

let us see

all there is

joyous we

beauty see

in our love

beauty dwells

come my love

130

Ocean waves slide

upon the beach

carrying stones

sand and bubbles

sea shells are shown

and then hidden

sea weeds cast forth

withers and dies

sunlight sparkles

on short lived tunnels

ceaselessly rolling

hisses and grumbles

gulls are soaring

dolphins glide

hills in motion

valleys that hide

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Oh my brother

so shined the sun

the flowers bloomed

softly blew the wind

around the grasses and trees

Oh my brother

I met you there

I felt your touch

and looked upon your work

I heard your words

and wept

in Kirtland

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Once upon a time

there were five toes

the five toes came in five sizes

there was a big, heavy toe

a tall but skinny toe

a in between toe that was always in the middle of every thing

a short and skinny toe

and a little, small toe

these five toes where very close to one another

they did every thing together

they went with each other all over

if one took a bath they all took a bath also

when two went on a hike

the other three would tag along

we're going skin diving cried three

so are we shouted back two

in all things and in every way

they were all as close

and as happy as could be

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There must be mountains

very high and proud

with few if any trails

no easy way to the top

they must be lonely

few people there upon

because they are very hard

I seek to climb the mountains

to rise with them so high

but it must not be easy

in climbing I must be tried

for I am seeking my boundaries

that I may push them back

I look for tests

that I may know myself

I do things that are hard

so I will grow stronger

therefore mountains must be

that I may climb them

134

How could I not think of you

How could I ever forget

In the long night while I work

Laboring alone with the unliving machines

Nothing can stop my thoughts from turning to life

And when thinking of I think of you

For what which is life to me

Is now all the many things we do together

And I cannot think of what my life would be without you

Yes I think of you in the night when I am gone

I think of you sleeping without me at your side

Each morning I count another dawn alone

I count another awakening that I will never see

The light in your eyes when first opened to the day

I think of you turning to look and me not there

Yes I think of you alone in the night

I think of you

136

Yes my love I think of you

When I am far away

Then if your arms cannot hold me near

My heart is still with you

No time or distance great or small

Can come between our love

I need not see you with my eyes

To love you in my heart

My arms still feel you with their hold

Though now they may hold you not

I cannot forget your hair, your eyes

Nor how you walk and move

I think of you my love when I'm away

I think of you night and day

137

Arise oh my and sing

To all the world let your voice ring

Of all the love there is within you

For the one who moves you to beat

Look forth Oh eyes and see

Fairer beauty than which words can speak

From her soul springs light with which to see

Reach my hand to hold her

Bring her with my arms to me and hold her

Run softly across the hills and plains so warm

Touch my lips to hers

Taste that sweetness deeper than wine

Drink of the love forever fulfilling

Speak my mouth the words

Of joy beyond the telling

The thoughts of my unending

I love you

I love you

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Somewhere wings love

flying swift and high

a silver arrow

though the sky

the flapping winging

like beating hearts

moves so quickly

foreword on

an endless flight

eyes see so far

from such a height

sing out the cry

across the land

so sweet so pure

high and clear

I love you

I

love you

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Swiftly my love

come to me

running come

your hair flying

your joyous face

with laughing smile

swiftly my love

come to me

my heart grows heavy

when we're apart

the mocking smile

leaves my face

my booming voice

is soft and quiet

as I wait

you again

swiftly my love

come to me

I need your arms

to hold me tight

I need your hands

to hold in mine

I need your voice

your words comfort me

I need your ears

to hear my dreams

swiftly my love

come to me

swiftly my love

my world is dark

I need your light

within me now

I want you

my love

walking beside me

now oh now

swiftly my love

come to me

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Swiftly come to me my love

bring your beauty to lighten my day

to end the darkness of your being away

back to me on wings of love fly

quickly fly for your love I need

without you here I cannot smile

I know not joy and my heart is sad

oh bring to end the endless wait

swiftly come to me my love

I need you to be here

142

Tick

Tock

Says the clock

Hands move

Time moves on

Tick

Tock

Moving hands

Time's all things

With the sun

Around

Around

Tick

Tock

Goes the clock

Always going

Getting nowhere

Tick

Tock

Says the clock

Tick

Tock

Tick

143

Ode to the hardhat

Orange and bright

It sits upon my head

A creation of plastic

My head to save

To the test

I'd hope it not to put

For if it failed

I'd be dead

144

Oh dreaming man

What desire moves within you

What do you now seek after

What dreams now hold you

Are you ever content with what is

Must you always want of something more

Why cannot this day to day life fill you

Why do you need that which is not

Ah dreamer know you no peace

Do you not rest within the reality of now

Dreamer, dreamer

Dream well that which you dream

Perhaps some day you'll have your dreams

145

Swiftly flows the brooklet by

Laughing on its way

Singing too it hurry on

Gaily all the day

Always merrily onward going

Towards the sunset

147

Love is a small bird

With many bright feathers

Flying though the air

On a warm sunny day

149

Oh what is love

Can any one say

Do you look it up in a book

Or learn it in school

Oh what is love

Can words really say

Yet within my heart

I know I love you

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